and again ive gone a long while without typing anything in here.. so i guess that means ive broken my addiction to this site.. but really it doesn't matter.. no one actually cares.. i hung out with gillespie, melissa and mark this afternoon.. we just walked around and talked and bitched and it was freezing and mark didnt wear a sweatshirt.. we went to robs house then after gillespie left we 3 went to ashleys house and after that rachels house.. then to walgreens and after mark got picked up i went home and melissa went to her house.. thats about the most physical activity ive gotten in a really long time.. was fun though, as fun as walking around can be.. its good for me to get out though.. keeps me from thinking.. i hate thinking.. i need to not think ever again because i hate what conclusions i come to..

i dont know what im gonna do for halloween.. i havent been invited to do anything with anyone as of yet and its on monday so ill probly end up just sitting home.. how exciting.. i love the holiday but chances are i wont find anyone to do anything with by then..

heh.. and i guess im gonna go stare at my buddy list and be depressed because no one talks to me.. because i am that pathetic.. and i feel the need for everyone to know it..